Remember that time I canceled Halloween?
The other day Lily asked me to help her get into her kitty costume, and once she was in it, she wanted Josie to get in her chicken costume. I was pretty surprised that Lily even remembered Josie's costume, and really excited that Lily wanted to engage Josie in what she was playing. Lately Lily's been prone to scratching Josie in the face and pushing her down when she's sitting up, then running away after she thwacks her poor little head on the floor. So I got the cuties suited up and pulled out the camera, just for Aunties Emily, Cami, and Wendy :).
I have had some less-than-awesome mom moments lately. Yesterday I was cutting up some food on Josie's highchair tray, which I thought had been cleaned from lunch. Then I saw this piece of dog hair and was like, "Huh, that's nasty, but I mean, sometimes these things happen..." Then it dawned on me that I had never actually wiped the tray down, but Dirk had helpfully licked it off for me. How nice. Have some dog saliva with your dinner, Josie, it'll put hair on your chest.
Then yesterday Lily peed on our bed, all over our down comforter. Dry clean only. Cool. Also I feel like all efforts I make to discipline that child are in vain. Scolding, time outs, even spankings are treated with cheerful indifference and usually, mocking. Ok, she's not really mocking me but it feels like she is. From conversations with other moms I have come to the conclusion that feeling inept is a big part of parenthood, and I'm not alone.
Pretty soon here I'm going to put my latent knowledge of behavioral theory to use and put Lily on a reward system. If anyone has any successful methods, do tell!
I'm glad I got pictures of this little piece of time in which Lily wanted to play dress up with Josie. They are both so impossibly cute right now. I love when, out of nowhere, Lily will look at me and say, "I luw you, Mom". I wish I could've captured the moment yesterday when I was feeding Josie lunch, and she gave this big burp, then looked at me and we both started cracking up. Or how can I describe how sweet it is when your kids are so happy to see you every time they wake up? The innocence and loyalty with which children love is a whole lesson in itself. Every night I ask God for help to do better the next day; to have more patience, show more love, play more. Every day I get these small reassurances that I'm doing okay in spite of all my imperfections.
4 comments:
such a sweet post and I can totally relate Sara. You are such a great mom and such a good example to me! Love ya!
I think they look more darling in March then they did in October. And it is never too late to celebrate Halloween.
Thank you for posting! Your girls could NOT be any cuter!!! I miss them!
Hang in there, you are a great mom. I was highly mocked by Katie at Lily's age. Have you heard about the time that Katie washed her own mouth out with soap for biting someone (Evan, I'm sure). She went right in the bathroom and squirted bath and body works hand soap right into her own mouth. Yeah, she would just laugh at me everytime I got mad at her, I cried, or anything. I had no mommy magic, but somehow now she is a near perfect angel...so thoughtful, sweet, obedient, etc. It just happened with time. Good luck! Love you!
Oh my gosh, they are adorable!
I was just scrolling through the comments from my craft pack post and saw yours. I'm not really commenting on that post cause there are too many, but I wanted to stalk you cause you said you're a grad student too and god knows we all have to stick together! Or something. Anyhow... thanks for your comments! And to answer your question, I'm in religious studies.
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